Comeback
Lately, I had a remarkable comeback to the world of Journalism. I stopped doing anything related to it 2 years ago because I had to concentrate on the immigration procedure and study both Chinese and English to pass the HSK and IELTS exams and after that, I didn't have time to return to it. Apart from that, my personal decision was to take a break from that environment because OMG being a journalist in Iran is one of the most absurd things. There's no authority or system and everything is at the most chaotic status which is not unforeseen since everything in Iran goes through the same circumstances. Furthermore, that break was an extremely unconscious break from my first interest in life, literature, as well. I haven't read a novel since then which I assume is kinda understandable as I used to read almost 3 or 4 books per week 4 years to write reviews or do literary projects and I guess I kinda ought to rest to retrieve my love (I haven't regained it yet).
But how did the comeback happen? Multiple people suggested "You should join the media team" and none of them answered my question regarding "how I could join this media team". Finally, after 5 months since the first time I had this dialogue, I was added to this Fight Club-esque group that everyone was dodging talking about. After doing my first project, the people on the team were surprised by my talent in both production and social skills. It is really funny since when I came to Shanghai, I was so incapable of socializing and dumb in that sense that made me dwell in my room for the whole first month without any human interaction, and now look where we are! I'm going on dates with people who I don't even know that much (this is a story for another time). After years of procrastinating in understanding social skills, I believe my progress in the last couple of months was impressive and this is what I realized when doing the last project.
So I had to do a project about Chinese Valentine's Day (May 20) and I came up with the idea that I could just go around and ask my friends to answer my questions and this was how I took part in the most satisfying experience of my career. To be honest, I love interviewing people and I love to listen to them. As an absolutely poor listener, I feel this was like a practice for me to not only focus but dissect my friends' words in a non-overthinking manner. I had this opportunity to ask them to define love and they came up with the most natural and sincere answers that made the video even more adorable than I hoped to. I watched it thousands of times while editing and let's say I'm so lucky to have the best people around me I have the smartest, coolest, and hottest friends ever (yes I love to brag about them) and this is why I was so devoted to this project (biking around the Shanghai in this painfully humid weather is not the best adventure ever). Even though at the moment I don't have a partner or lover, I have them to love and for the first time in my life, I don't see a relationship as a necessity to be happy, and surprisingly, I feel happy.